There'd be no reason to think twice.

I'm not sure at what point a situation that a one point would have been normal, became awkward, when a greeting with a kiss would be come a wave, a frown, and finally nothing, when the greatest time becomes barely a memory, when happiness became misery.

I think this all happened at once, in a moment. I wish I could meet that moment.
And tell it that I hate it. But I understand why it had to come.

xo

somewhere only we know

life is just to utterly random.
keeps things interesting.



xo

hungoverrrr

Liar,
You never called.
But I'll be just fine, yeah I'm fine,
Sleep well.

This never made much sense to me
So I sleep alone.
Cause you are the same as I always remembered,
I'll always remember.
Where was all your money.
You said, where is all your money.

You like it more than ever,
And I can not stand this.
Because you like it more than ever.

It was just a god damn mistake.
Stay at home,
Because you're way to good at faking.
Love is too much,
I'll be just fine here.
Stay at home,
Because it's always the same.
Darling you fucked up.

I guess I love to spend all my time up in my own brain.
Because I can believe the words coming up out of your face.

Where was all your money.
You said, where is all your money.

You like it more than ever,
And I can not stand this.
Because you like it more than ever.

I guess they all knew.
Somebody draw the sun.
Those states made me distant.
Tell me it's always, better.

Well I can't believe you're still in the valley,
Wasting away.
I guess they got the best of me,
And got your all.
But I'll be just fine here.

i love this band SO much. xo

you can try to fight this all you want.

wellll had a lovely weekend in york with gemma, daniel + megan, much love to them.
went out for tea last + drank some wineeeee. good times <3>

today had a brief look around york designer outlet, no money, so no purchase except a a yummy white hot chocolate, mmmmmmmmmmm.

now sat with the rents watching tv writing my personal statement for uni, (urgh).

good to be home i guess :)

work tomorrow with Papa. I actually quite like it, secretly.

xo

i'm home and you're so dead.

england sucks. and i'm totally in love with LYDIA.

I can't stay over you. 
It seems we drive forever but can never get away from here, 
just one more try. 
I'm guessing you are over me, I guess it's bravery. 
Well cause it's black out the window while you sleep in the passenger seat.
It's gone.

Oh when it's always on your mind but you never speak of the name.
It's in your blood and face and I'm certain it's fame. 
So I stayed out in the car cause the weather had gotten to me. 
But its really these road signs and freeways that I can't take.

This can't be how you live. 
It's like a, a ball and chain around your waist or this simple state. 
Your mind's sick again. 
I'm tasting nothing but 4 words, "please don't leave me". 
And it's Dark in the winter so your ideas start to sleep. 

Well your head is spinning like that carousel, 
and I know you're a mess after 3 or 4. 
But if you make it different then we'll make our way to the surface, 
and your favorite place. 
Where we sit, and we breath. 
cause I know all the words and I sing you everything. 
Well they're just thoughts so go ahead and speak.
So pick out what you like and call me when you're on the way. 
You can spend the night and hope to sleep all day. 
For me its just another week, twenty eight was once how I dreamed. 
And with your scent on my face I can leave and have you for days. 

I still can't see you. 
The summer came and we got lost, all of us. 
You are nothing with out her. 
I still wont remember your face, 
the features mix too well with this alcohol. 
So we cover ourselves in your fear, 
and stay to watch that moon disappear under these lights. 
This city, this city's screaming at me. 
And as you breathe the words I better go. 
The sun is up and taking back all the shadows that covered this ground, 
and our feet, like a blanket of coal.

where does the time go?

HELLO to you.

So what have I been doing? I wish I could update this thing more with all the rad things I am doing but its just so hard to write about it when I’m so busy doing it!

I am in Noosa right now whch is just a cute beach town, its lovely. Before this I was in Brisbane which I enjoyed a lot, but it was just another city, very nice though. We went to a theme park which was realllllyyy fun, it was based around the ‘movies’ it was called movieworld, crazy. Leathal Weapon gave me temporary brain-damage

Before that I was in Byron Bay which was a surf town with the most cutest shops + was full of beautiful people. We went on a day tour to Nimbin, which was possibly one of the most random days out of my entire life. We went and it was just full of hippies, weird cafes + smelled like weed.

Everyone was just smoking it in the street + selling it, they really don’t care, it’s not legal at all in NSW, but apparently this crazy town just does what it wants.

Lots of people bought cookies + got really high, SO funny.

We went to this random mans house, who like lived in a middle of the rain-forest that he had created, apparently. Everyone just sat around eating water-melon and looked really stoned. HA.

Oh yeah it was pissing it down allllll day. Then we went to a waterfall, it was amazing, I’ve never seen a real one before. I took a few pictures + then did one back to the bus, WET THROUGH I was.

The hostel in Byron was good.  We had our own apartment which we only have to share with 3 other people.  There was two girls, which were awesome, + we hung out with them + 3 other people they were travelling with. Good times.

before that was surf camp, where i attempted to surf, WORST IDEA EVER, and i've had a few!

i nearly drown about 6 times before i gave up + floated about on my board for 90 minutes. I really wanted to be ace at it, and look cool as fuck. NO.

Before that was sydney which was very average, but i did enjoy the bridge, the opera house + darling harbour. SEE FACEBOOK FOR PICTURESSSS.

Currently loving:

Breaking dawn, lipton tea, mars pods, movie nights, cute shops, excursions, but trips, posting things, the beach, actual sunshine, sleeping in.

xo

this song saved my life.

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads saying
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything, everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric 
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? 

Are the details in the fabric 
Are the things that make you panic 
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?

Are the things that make you blow 
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault 
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

xo

Nana

3 weeks ago my mum called me and told me that my Nana had passed away. I am devastated. Me + my Nana were very close, we spent a lot of time together while I was growing up, I have many fond and treasured memories of her. I will never forget here + her wonderful  ways.

Watching diagnosis murder + countdown, every Monday after school for 4 years, every Saturday night when I was a kid, every Christmas morning for a long as I can remember, (everyone used to gather there first in the morning, before attending various parties), her advice, her stories, her love for her family, her kind heart,  her sense of huour, and most of all being the greatest Nana in the world.

I very much almost headed in home when I got the news, I thought about it the whole week leading up to the funeral, but I stayed in Australia, my family said it was where I should be, and that my Nana was so proud of me, and that she wouldn’t have wanted me to leave, I know this is true and not some comfort bullshit. That’s who she was, un-selfish and wanted the best for everyone she loved.

I haven’t cried as much in ages about anything. I feel better now. I just hope my family are doing good. I miss them everyday and I can’t wait to see them again!

This loss had made me realise things. That time really is too short to be falling out, feeling hateful, being cruel, or unforgiving and to truly appreciate the people in your life while they are still here, because they won’t always be.  So from now on, I will follow that, I will forgive and forget, I will make time for the people I love, I will smile, I will laugh it off, I will not bitch, I will not take things for granted, I will make the most of everything.

I’m not saying I’ll never be sad or pissed off, but just more forgiving of it all I guess.

Apologies for the heart-pouring. J 

 

XO!

Bye Melbourne, Hello Sydney!

So I’ve spent the last 4 weeks in Melbourne. It has been RAD. Made the nicest friends, especially the YORKSHIREEEEE lot J

I tried getting a job so we could maybe have stayed a bit longer and find somewhere nice to live, DID NOT happen, who said working in Australia was easy? Not me.

We saw some really cool stuff in Melb, we went to the top of the tallest building, and we had a 360 view of the city, it was amazing, we went at sunset, so it was really pretty and then we saw it when it was dark, the city was all lit up, so pretty. I couldn’t believe how big the city is, and it has so many suburbs too, I bet we didn’t even see half it.

Anyway, we left Melbourne early Tuesday morning on our Oz Experience bus, it was freezing! Like England, so depressing.  We set on our way to Sydney, but we made a few stops first. We headed to Wilsons Promontory National Park, which was absolutely beautiful, it had a rain forest which was  so peaceful + lovely, but not only this, It had the most beautiful beach I have ever  seen, seriously. (See facebook soon for pictures)

That evening after a very long day of climbing, walking, travelling + exploring, we had fish + chips down at a local restaurant in a tiny village called Forster, not far from where we were staying at lakes entrance.

Lakes entrance are not quite 5 star accom, (ha) was like something out of a horror movie, like the new Friday the 13^th, with less nudity. It was alright, although the hot water run out + found myself using the boys shower (yuk).

Next Day we all arose at 5.30am (double yuk) had breakfast and headed for Thredbo Alpine Village. Another couple of hours away, apparently its Australia’s highest point. It had snow, yes real snow, amazing. We stopped for lunch on the way in the little town, I had the best chilli burger ever, I’m sorry but I just had to tell you about it. We then went on a ski lift to the top of the mountain (almost) it took you about ¾ of the way up, we had to walk the rest……but we didn’t, we just stood about for a bit, took some pictures, and headed back down the mountain. We were in a hurry to bag the best beds in our room. The accom was much better, it had a tv in the room ( I watched dusturbia) + we stole a kettle to make multiple cups of tea.

Had a horrific meal that night, we were still so hungry we were snacking on bread. Had a lovely nights sleep, woke up too late didn’t have time for breakfast, spent the entire journey to or next destination being hungry. Standard.

Next stop Canberra just for a couple of hours before we hit it hard to Sydney. Canberra is like the Truman Show. Completely man-made, constructed purely to be the capital of Australia. Nothing there, but it’s where the big guys hang out, members of parliament and all that. We went into parliament house. It was pretty dull. Don’t care much for politics and stuff like that. My highlight really was the hungry jacks I picked up for the bus, (double whopper w/cheese, I thank you!) Followed by a rather amusing game of Bingo!

 Arrived in Sydney 2 days after leaving Melbourne. Its warmer, but a bit of a shit hole.

That night we got a sweet deal on a cruise around the harbors, which was awesome, I saw the opera house, magnificent.

XO!

HELLO , i'm in Melbourne.

SOZ late update! I know all of my follower(s) will be dispapointed in my lack of postings. A lot has happend since I last updated. We did i few things in Perth, but i'm sorry i realllly can't be bothered to go through it all. SO here is a brief outline:

• Rottnest Island- 'i can ride my bike wiht no handlebars' - see facebook album !
• Bunbury, Margaret River, Busselton - GOOD times , loved Margaret River, for those of you who read the twilight books, it was like Forks, it was so cute, i loved it. Except the cloud + rain, (much like forks)
• Penguin Island - Lots of Penguins
• The Zoo- Lots of animals
• Multiple RAD nights out, especially one at amplifier, where I met the love of my life, never to be seen again, i'll remember him fondly, (HA!)

Thats all i can remeber right now, but if i think of anything good i'll add.

Anyway MELBOURNE is where it's at! 24 hour city, its amazing. So much to do + see, although we have been here nearly 2 weeks + have done nothing tourist-y, but we will.

We're staying in a pretty decent hostel, apart from the abismal kitchen, but we're dealing with it. I hate cooking, + have become overly fond of 'just popping to mcdonalds' as its down the road, GUILTY PLEASURE, i'm going to be about 3 stone heavier upon my return to the uk. (YUK) We've met some lovely people to, bloody southerners + some radass yorkshire folk <3>

Found the best club, like cockpit-melbourne! But better music + hotter boys, MMM . I am truly in the pribe ob libe. I really need a job though, my mum keeps asking me if i'm okay for money, i'm like 'yeahhh at the moment!' not for long thugh, the way i spend it, im not like a backpacker AT ALL. Backpacker girls are gross, they wear brwon + green all the time + don't put any make-up on, EW . Me + Soph vow to never become one of them.

I currently love: tight-are tuesdays , cheap wine , eclipse , chocolate milkshakes, brand new, late nights, being a tourist + rocking the fuck out.

Peace xo!

'Alright Snarley Davidson!'

So tonight we were sat outside smoking (shocker) + around the table there are 8 chairs , we were in 2 of them, so we had to fill the other 6 with anybody we wanted, we got a celebrity list + a normal list heres how it went :

My Celeb List:

1. Russell Brand
2. Noel Fielding
3. Johnny Depp
4. Aaron Gillespie
5. Alex Gaskarth
6. Dallas Green

My normal list

1. Mum
2. Dad
3. Mel
4. Louise
5. Kev
6. Fi

Sophie is really odd + couldn't think of a celeb list, but heres her regular one

1. Mum
2. Kev
3. Jamie
4. Will
5. Max
6. Chris

that was laugh . this was in between talking in funny voices, + sophie changing my name to kelly.

xo!

this photograph is proof.

this is how we roll .

this picture is the ABSOLUTE definition of us .

xo!

you'll always be my thunder.

today we went to rockingham shopping center .

it was rad . we ate red rooster + spent money on things we didn't really need . you don't really need anything when in less than 2 weeks you'll be staying in hostels for 5 months. 20 bucks a night + food , booze + fags. pricey .

i bought much needed hair-dye , home colouring it has to be . getting it cut by an actual hairdresser tomorrow though. i am excited. it looks like shit . should have it done before i left the UK , but i was all like 'no im letting it grow out + colour fade , want to get it natural.' oh yeah. right.

hair is gay . i wish i'd never cut it off . but as sophie would say 'bulid a bridge'

she said that to me about 20 minutes ago , ive been in her mood with her ever since . she hasnt noticed . not a proper mood though .

here is us earlier today :

extremeeeee close-up !

xo!

smoking + drinking tea

is a regular thing we do , atleast 675 times a day . i love it !

outside at 10.11 a conversation between sophie + i

Sophie : kate , do you set your friends on fire?

Kate : no , but i have some enimies i'd like to.

a few seconds past

Kate : actually i take that back , theres not one person in this world i hate right now .

sophie loves this hate-free kate longley .

xo

''leave the past in the past.''

is what my mum said on the phone to me a little bit ago .
then started going on about Rafiki in the lion king.
shes great is my mum , i miss her dearly <3

but our chat cheered me up, she says the best things.

i'm embracing things everyday here + i love it .

no more drama.

i've eaten so much kfc , feel well sick ! might go have a ciggie , sort me out .

xo!

i miss my kitchen

And my mum on a morning, already, its only been two weeks.

i also just looked through old photos in myspace albums.

feel very sad.

xo

so why get a blog if you never update it ?

who knows . I'm rubbish . i think i prefer to use the Internet more for stalking purposes , than anything else, childish i know .

soooo whats been going on ? well after a AMAZING two days in hong kong, we hit Perth arriving friday the 27th . got to si + sues (sophies aunt + uncle) house ( which is amazing by the way) sat outside @ 10am + drank a beer + burnt my chest + shoulders , welcome to australia !

i realllly cannot be bothered writing a millions sentences about what I've been doing, so here is a short , bullet-point account of whats happened so far :

• Soundwave festival- underoath , need i say more ? best day ever , great festival , so damn hot, amazing bands, absolutely loved it . especially when we got moshed on by some 14 year olds.
• Freemantle with the HC boys , what a lovely day that was , frolicked around the town. that appeared to by 40 years behind time, so cuteeee though ! Not much to do but i was real pretty .
• Cottesloe Beach-lovely beach, PACKED with people , but no boys to my liking, shame, lou promised it was full of them - we'll be having words ! Anyway i actually went in the sea! No jelly fish/shark attacks as of yet . Fingers crossed, don't want a reenactment of pedalow circa 2006 in spain .
• Perth city-me + soph got lunch + shopped til we acatully couldnt stand up, its really difficult in a temp of 33 degrees .
• Perth city night out , well lets say our attempt to find perths 'cockpit' has not gone well ! hahah ! alllll the clubs were playing some sort of boom boom dance shit , that i just can't handle . found some random auusie boys (obv) who showed us around, nice youing chaps .It was rad all the same , me + sophie bring the party ;)

also multiple bbqs in the garden , dips in the pool , sunbathing + trips all over the transperth train line.

xo!

hello , i lost my phone .

douchebagggg ! who loses there phone.....in manchester airport ?

atleast it wasn't my passport right ? LOL . what a way to start this trip , my mum thinks i'm incapable , can't say i blame her .

so im ridiculously tired didnt sleep monday night AT ALL , + its pretty impossible to sleep on a plane with little room to move !
we changed seats cos our originals were HORRIFIC ! didn't get an upgrade like we wished , fucking first class , they had champagne + everything .
atleast sophie didnt kill me on the 12 hour flight due to lack of nicotine !

so finalllly got to hong kong this morning , at like 8.30am here , we're 8 hours ahead i think ??
got taxi from hell , + arrived @ hotel + paid $40 for a coke , bad times . (oh but the view from our hotel room is AMAZING .)

had the best shower of my life + now we're rocking around kowloon , which is lush . riding some crazy tube here , there + everywhere , i am truly in the pribe ob libe !

we walked through a market full of live fish + dead animals , proper rough it was , what an experience !

going to walk with buddha soon :) , then eating some proper chinese food tonight <3 mmmmmm .

xo!

I'm Leaving

I leave for Hong Kong in approximately 41 hours ?

i have never been , so excited or scared in my entire life , worse than when i moved for uni .

All my family are coming round today, that'll be emotional .

6 months isn't actually that long , i'm sure it'll go wayyyy too fast for us !

I'm listening to an amazing band called Lydia right now . I should probably get odff my ass + in the shower seen as everyone will be here in like half an hour !

mmmm , see you soon hk !

xo!